I think I need a lovesick pill...

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 22:36:53 GMT

again, I'm lovesick of the guy I saw in Santana the other time. If only fate isn't so cruel, I think I would've met him already. I know, falling in love in this age is not a good thing, cause I'm way too yuong to be in love. I don't even think I'm ready to start a relationship yet. Now I'm talking serious, I'm in love with this guy I barely saw for like 2-4 seconds. I mean, we actually met eye contact, which I think is the best we could ever be. I'm seriously in love and I feel strongly so. I can't stop thinking of him, and whenever I think about love, he would pop into my head. I'm not talking about the kind of love that's like highschool crush or anything like that, I literally think I'm in love, which is not a good thing because it's killng my heart right now.

My First Entry...

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 23:24:51 GMT

This is my first entry, and I'm pretty sure that no one is going to read it so I'm just going to write a DBSK romance/shounen ai fic. Not sure if this is going to be good enough, but I'm working on it ^_^

One-Shot Title: As the Time ticks away...
Author: Ayu
Pairing: Jaeho and slight hint of Yoosu
Genre: angst, broken...
Rating: G
Summary: Jaejoong doesn't know why Yunho leaves him, but will he figure out why soon enough or is he just going to give up on life and find somewhere else that he won't have to always be in the dark?

   As the time ticks away, you watch the clock, desperately waiting for him to come home. You begin to wonder if he feels nostalgic about leaving you and what he have loved for so long. Slowly but steadily, you try to recall what you have done wrong to make him refrain from loving you and leaving you.
   The thought stung you and you are becoming weaker by the second, just because he isn't by your side. You try to cling to the thought that he'll return soon, that he'll hold you til' you break, and that he'll tell you that everything would be alright from then on. But as time ticks by and he still hasn't return, you begin to loosen your grasp on the thought you tried to cling to.
   You look at the other two outside, happily playing soccer with each other. The taller one couldn't catch up with the shorter person, so he hugged him from behind, which caused the shorter one to giggle and blush silently. You look at them and envy began to boil upon you. Looking at them just make you want to go out there and slap the both of them. Tears rounded up in your eyes and you know you can't wriggle free from them. You take the last photograph you took with him that was sitting on the table. What did I do wrong? You begin to ask yourself every second you were looking at the photograph.
   The love between you and him was strong, but you begin to feel that it was all just the vague borders of a happy dream. You begin to think that all those time together with him were lies. You are now sure that your love with him have always only been part of your imagination, a part of your happy dream. But now it was reality, and you were still alone in the dark, not being able to take the pain any longer.
   The next thing you know, you were grabbing the small but sharp kitchen knife that you are sure is going to be the cure for your pain. You slowly slit your left wrist without hesitation, slowly letting the blood dripping out from your frail wrist. You smiled the last smile that he will not see and let the last drop of teardrop streak down your cheek, which you are sure are pale. With your right index finger, you pressed onto your wound and wrote with your fresh blood the words, "Good-bye, Yunho". When you finished, you reached up your neck and got a hold of the necklace he gave you when he first started dating you. The necklace, now stained with your blood, has the following words carved onto it, "Love from Yunho to Jaejoong", carved with elegance and grace.
   You blissfully leaned back on the kitchen counter and your vision slowly began to fade. Your clutch from the necklace he gave you began to loosen, and you wait as your breath gradually began to slow down and are soon going to disappear completely from your body. You could feel the warmth vanishing from your body and being replaced with the coldness from death. The last noise you heard were the footsteps of the other two people living with you, the two that were playing soccer outside. Eventually, you feel you feel yourself disappearing from the outside world and going to someplace where you are bound to find happiness with someone else that won't leave you in the cold and stay by your side forever and ever.

I'm so proud of myself...*gets teary-eyed* I've just wrote my first one-shot! Yay! *gets into hyper mode* anyways, bye!

We've taken the long road...

I think I need a lovesick pill...

My First Entry...